Last night (and by ‘last night’ I mean 4 in the morning) I went to bed with a few heavy things on my mind. I’m partially surprised I was even able to sleep at all. Granted, I did toss and turn for a while because what plagued me wouldn’t go away.
So, I prayed about it.
I prayed for the power to let go. To let him go. Which could actually be considered the follow-up prayer to another which I’d asked to be shown the type of person he really was. Turns out, I don’t like him.
I hadn’t realized that I’d allowed myself to be swept away by my own desires so much that I was neglecting everything else. And it was really hurting me. Emotionally. So much so that I’d become numb.
Today, I’m proud to say that I woke up with a new attitude. My head is clear and for the first time in a long time, I can think clearly and I really feel at peace.
Maybe that was the lesson in all of this. In me meeting him. For me to learn that time shouldn’t be invested in people who aren’t worth it. People who only view me as just another option.
I’m worth so much more.